Re-Awakening... After a long sleep.

Being an empath means, we think about things a little deeper than others. While others usually wake up and get their days started with not so much as a wink or a nod to the "powers that be" for waking them and for the day. I do, I thank God for everything and every day, daily. When I was young and in my "running wild" stage, some said I wouldn't live to see 20 years old... And look at me now.? Forty-nine years strong!

This ole lady has begun to re-awaken the sleeping soldier. The silent warrior from within begins to emerge! And I'm thankful. Some people say once you've been awakened from your sleep about this world, you can never go back to sleep! That does not apply in this case! I've had a few bouts of re-awakening.. #Yep! And each time I thank God I realized I had fallen back to sleep and that I needed to get back to a point of living life in the now... Not only that but to remember and see this world more natural and true! While asleep, you don't realize the important things happening around you. You're oblivious to the real things in life and you could care less about truth! While sleep you've fallen into the trap of believing all the lies. Everything this world has told you to believe, you believe without question. 

The things going on in this world is happening because most of us are deeply asleep! But not me tho! I'm waking back up! See what happened to me is simple. It happened slowly at first. For example; I stopped doing my daily walks and my weekday workouts. It probably doesn't sound bad to stop those things. But here's the link. Doing exercises every day kept my body in check, which in turn kept my emotions in check, which in turn kept me more balanced and at peace!

Yes, from just exercising! I had even started doing yoga every day and it improved my body in ways I never thought possible as well as still my mind! Giving up those things helped me to fall back into a sleeping pattern and made my body weak. Most of my chronic health conditions can be manageable or non-existent while I kept up my workout routine. So as I begin to fall back to sleep, I started having to deal with my health issues which made me more tired and therefore, sleepy..and then I'm slowly falling. Falling back to sleep!

Here's another example; When I was more awake, I stopped watching television except for maybe once or twice a week. Again, I know that probably doesn't seem like much, but television can be addictive and controlling of your time. Leaving television off of my daily schedule gave me time for other things such as meditation, music, crafts, etc. Which in turn kept me at peace and gave me an outlet for my stress. Once I started to fall back to sleep, I started back watching TV. Slowly at first, then everyday, every chance I got?! No more time to read or further my growth, TV had taken its place and also had me wanting everything I saw on TV.

Television also had me buying things I might not have needed, comparing myself to those I saw on TV, and watching things I might not agree with or that didn't reflect the things around me in real life! So I begin to disconnect with my inner side and started sleeping and looking at everything from the outside. At that point, I was fully back to sleep... Drifting through life. 

This time while sleeping, it took me over two years to wake back up! #Yes! Within those years I had some tough life situations like death, hardship, and moving. At that time I totally disconnected from my inner self. Then one-day things begin to change. Again, it all happened slowly. I started to have dreams and remember them for days?! I started to look around me and see that something was terribly wrong?! 

What was happening in my life, I didn't recognize it? What was happening in this world? All of a sudden things looked upside down. I took a good look at myself and noticed I had gained 30 pounds, I was out of shape, and I looked tired. This was not what I wanted to see. Getting on the scale for the first time in 2 years was frightening! OMG! "I've never been this big in my life", I said! Tears streaming down my face...it hit me! I was totally asleep! I had been so asleep that I wasn't even aware of myself any longer... 

I was just going through the motions of life, not really paying attention to the things that matter. I had put all the pain and grief aside instead of dealing with it. Not dealing with my issues caused weight gain and depression (which keeps you more asleep). After I got off the scale, I made up in my mind right then and there that I would begin to get my life back together and re-awaken my sleeping soul. I wouldn't be too hard on myself, but I would dig out my willpower and take it one day at a time. I knew it would take time and hard work. So I begin to focus on the little things. 

For me, it is hard to get my mind together when my body is out of whack. So, the first thing I started back doing was exercising. Not giving myself any excuses, just doing it (willpower). I made myself a schedule, low impact (45 min.) aerobic workout (walking workout) Monday - Friday! When I first started I could barely make it 10 minutes without having to stop and take a break. But I kept going! I would not let my aches and pains stop me either! The key is to keep it up until it becomes part of my weekday routine. 

The start was the hardest... After I got started the first thing I noticed wasn't weight loss, but how I was beginning to feel again. I was beginning to get more pep in my step and my energy level was rising. I noticed my body getting back toned in areas that were sagging and flabby. My bloating and belly fat was shrinking every day! #Yay! Let me be clear here about my exercise routine and the Real reason for it... Yes, I want to lose weight but it's not my main reason. I want to get my mind and body balanced so that I might re-awaken myself and be at peace inside and out.

Exercising works for me because it helps me quiet my mind and it gets my body in-sync and balanced. Losing weight will be the by-product of what I am doing. I am so much more interested in re-awakening than I am weight loss. A wise woman told me once, If you keep your body, mind, and soul, at peace, everything else in your life will fall into place without you having to do a thing. Stay balanced! I found that to be sound advice and truth. So I have built my life around that premise. 

Starting with exercising has helped with many areas of my life like TV. I now have no need to watch television endlessly. I have gotten back to my schedule of only watching television periodically. I've started back having time for reading, meditation, yoga, etc. You might be thinking that this journey has taken a long time to get to this point? Well, it didn't. I'm only recently re-awakening. The revelations of my life are just recently occurring. Just after Christmas and before New Years (2017), I begin to awaken again.

Exercising five days a week has helped to re-awaken me in a short time. At this point, I've lost 10 pounds and my usual aches and pains are starting to go away. My mind is more at peace and I look at this world now with new eyes, again! Let's be clear, I know I still have a long ways to go before I'm where I need to be, but I am so thankful that I realized that I was asleep in the first place. I am thankful that once realized, I am doing something about it. I'm thankful that I didn't get overwhelmed with myself and not even try... Instead, I decided to look at myself and my situation out of the eyes of love. Yes, Love! 

No need to beat myself up for falling back to sleep. No need in being angry with myself for letting my body go... Life happens, and it happens to all of us. We all have different paths that we are taking. Once I begin to re-awaken, I remembered that love and understanding are what I need, from myself. I didn't need to be down on myself anymore. I remembered that I could change my thinking and choose to think positive and choose to be happy! So you see, I'm not in a hurry and I don't have a time schedule. I'm taking this one day at a time.

It takes time to turn your life around sometimes, but with effort and willpower, it can be done. Doesn't matter your age or social class, life happens! I will continue to re-awaken day by day. Sure they'll be setbacks sometimes (such is life) but life's journey requires us to participate. We must be aware of our own lives and be aware of our own issues. I'm starting with myself first! I believe in myself and I am determined to live a peaceful productive life... To get the life I want and to be a more awake and aware individual takes time, it takes staying the course! I can do this! My life is worth it. My journey continues...   

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